‘When you’re sad, you need to 

hear your sorrow structured into sound’
- Susanna Kaysen 

VERLIEFDE VERVREEMDING

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Vijf jaar geleden

Soms denk ik

Disco in bad

Verdwaald in onze dromen

‘Write the tale that scares you. That makes you

feel uncertain, that is uncomfortable.’

- Michaela Coel

EP.

NOSTALGIA 

SYNTHESIZERS

CLUBBY

DUTCH

WHISPERING

HARMONIES

SAD

DARK

SHAMELESS 

HONOUST

ALTEREGO

SOUNDSCAPES

SOFT

LOUD

CONFUSING

DIARY

ANGRY

ERROR

NOISE

FANTASY

SEX

WHY DO I

FEEL SHAME

WHEN MY EGO

IS THE MAIN

SUBJECT

OF MY

PROJECT?

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How can I provoke my own alienation or dissociation as a tool in my artistic proces of making music and sound?

How would my music sound like if I let go of shame, expectations and 'rules'? 

What will happen to my music if I focus more on an uncomfortable state or emotion?

How can I create an alternate but true story by enlarging certain aspects and characteristics of myself ?

 

 

FORMULA

 

I want to create a formula wherein I can go to extremes and surprise myself with my music and soundscapes. A way to get into a dissociated and psychedelic ‘flow state’, a state wherein I can't recognize myself anymore.

EXPERIMENTS

I want to do specific exercises to make myself feel uncomfortable.

A way so that I can try to let go of expectations and certain ‘rules’ in my head within making music. Hopefully I will make a lot of mistakes that I can transform into songs, in the sense of errors are key. 

 

 

 

TIME - RHYTHM - LYRICS - SOUNDS - SURROUNDINGS

- VOICE - TALK- HARMONY - CHORDS - MELODY - SPACE

 

 

29/10/21

PRESENTATION / EXPERIMENT

Caught in a dream 

Feeling distant memories

Vanish, but return

 

Too alienated to

Recognize who I am 

Without

I wonder,

did it make sense?

love is pain
I’m not that clever.
Ik ben een meeloper
what can I share. I miss singing.
I really enjoy the feeling of loss, because it keeps me from connecting.
I'm not a human actually. I'm an alien from outer space.