
‘When you’re sad, you need to
hear your sorrow structured into sound’
- Susanna Kaysen
VERLIEFDE VERVREEMDING

Vijf jaar geleden
Soms denk ik
Disco in bad
Verdwaald in onze dromen
‘Write the tale that scares you. That makes you
feel uncertain, that is uncomfortable.’
- Michaela Coel
EP.

NOSTALGIA
SYNTHESIZERS
CLUBBY
DUTCH
WHISPERING
HARMONIES
SAD
DARK
SHAMELESS
HONOUST
ALTEREGO
SOUNDSCAPES
SOFT
LOUD
CONFUSING
DIARY
ANGRY
ERROR
NOISE
FANTASY
SEX

WHY DO I
FEEL SHAME
WHEN MY EGO
IS THE MAIN
SUBJECT
OF MY
PROJECT?

How can I provoke my own alienation or dissociation as a tool in my artistic proces of making music and sound?
How would my music sound like if I let go of shame, expectations and 'rules'?
What will happen to my music if I focus more on an uncomfortable state or emotion?
How can I create an alternate but true story by enlarging certain aspects and characteristics of myself ?

FORMULA
I want to create a formula wherein I can go to extremes and surprise myself with my music and soundscapes. A way to get into a dissociated and psychedelic ‘flow state’, a state wherein I can't recognize myself anymore.
EXPERIMENTS
I want to do specific exercises to make myself feel uncomfortable.
A way so that I can try to let go of expectations and certain ‘rules’ in my head within making music. Hopefully I will make a lot of mistakes that I can transform into songs, in the sense of errors are key.
TIME - RHYTHM - LYRICS - SOUNDS - SURROUNDINGS
- VOICE - TALK- HARMONY - CHORDS - MELODY - SPACE
29/10/21
PRESENTATION / EXPERIMENT

Caught in a dream
Feeling distant memories
Vanish, but return
Too alienated to
Recognize who I am
Without

I wonder,
did it make sense?
love is pain
I’m not that clever.
